Today WILL matter tomorrow...

I talk to myself a lot! I am not sure if that is how the saying goes or not but that is the way I keep repeating it to myself. I much prefer the excitement of dramatic and drastic change BUT for some reason I only see that in retrospect. We are doing lots of therapy and so the calendar revolves around Grace's appointments. When Grace was two days old laying in the NICU a precious friend told me these words that I repeat every time we go to therapy, "Bridget, you are going to think the things the therapist do are silly but stick with it, it will make a difference over time". Yes, more talking to myself, I am sure I have issues. Carrie's words that day have cost a lot of time and money but she is a wise woman. A session of therapy (speech, occupational, physical) seems useless in isolation but over time you do see improvement. So these today's we aren't accomplishing a whole lot nothing dramatic to report. We are getting out more and that seems to have helped Grace's mood. I am not sure the germ docs would approve but we have to balance emotional health with physical health, ours and hers. She loves to go, go, go and we believe God made her that way and so that is what is best for her. Healthy - isn't just physical health.

Have I told you our nurse has been such a blessing? She is a great fit for our family and she sure lessens the stress around here. When she is here I have extra hands and it just feel free er to try to be normal. Normal with a nurse around sounds silly but whatever. God is just so creative in the ways He provides. I never get it right when I come up with the answer so I have become a very vague prayer, here is how I feel and I know you are great so just surprise me, Lord. I hope He doesn't think I am lazy but I seem to just waste my time coming up with solutions to find that His ideas are better. My brain just doesn't fathom the things His does and so even though things are NOT as far a long as I would like right now I know He has something even better in the works! I can't imagine what it is, what it looks like or really even what it sounds like but my imagination is a dud compared to His.

Just random pictures, I came across theses pictures the other day. She was turning 5 and I was trying to get a cute picture of her holding up 5 fingers in my attempt to get the perfect picture I pushed too far and took the fun out of it. Sometimes, it's hard to know just how far to push... For some reason they don't show up in the order I posted them but I bet you can guess the order in which I took them by her expression!