Blessed and Stressed

So Grace wanted to know when Judd was getting a trach. When I told her he didn't need one, she asked about Caroline. Then when I said she didn't need one either her list of names went on and on and on. I started by explaining why some people wear glasses and some don't but she was looking for a connection. One we don't have - another kid she knows with a trach. Sometimes different is awesome and sometimes it's not. She is frustrated and I really don't blame her. When she has a meltdown, and those are frequent, I secretly wish I could join in! I am sure I would regret it, so I don't, but it just sounds liberating. Grace is a blessed little girl in so many areas of life but she is also a stressed little girl in the areas of life most of us take for granted. We, as a family, have been incredibly blessed and provided for in a million ways. We have been the recipient of the most gracious and generous gifts and it far outweighs the stresses of our life but it is still sad to watch your children hurt. I know Grace is amazingly resilient but she is also unpredictably frustrated and irritated and she is looking for someone to blame! Judd and Caroline adore her but they are paying a high price for having Grace as a sister these days. We keep reminding her that she has a leadership role. Little eyes are watching and learning from her but she prefers to submit to her emotions. And, I suppose I do that a lot too! I pray that we can all celebrate the blessings and minimize the stresses as we put one foot in front of the other and go about our days!